Missing you

Hello Dad, I guess by now your aware I not only lost you, but my father in law soon followed....hope you two got to meet up, as you both were very special to me! Please give Angie a hug on my behalf too!

To Claude and Gladys

You were chosen by your Dad! As a parent of an adopted son I can assure you that LOVE was forever there. I know it didn't turn out the way it should have but that is over and God will deal with who He needs to. My thoughts and prayers to you both.
Serenity Prayer
God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change.
The courage to change the things I can.
And the wisdom to know the difference.

would that be ok

numbness fills my soul, the very soul you helped to rescue from a scared little boy many years ago. It seems like yesterday you came to see me, kinda like a puppy waiting for a home and yes I did my best to put on the show of a lifetime. I never quite new why my life started this way but what ever it took I was determined to make a change and you were the chance I needed. So from a worthless pit of nothingness I reached down deep and gave 110% to show you I could just possibly be that one. Your dream son who could do all the things you dreamed to do with your very own boy! So as you approached I let the show begin and man did I ever pull out all the stops running, singing, dancing and if a broadway producer would of been present you can bet I would of got the part. But there was no broadway and you needed no show, as the visit ended you kindly put your arms around me and said 'if you want me I would love to have you would that be ok?' Ever since that day in a small mall in Urbana Illinois everyday I still ask myself that simple question would that be ok and the answer is always the same 'yes' but now that your gone now that this hole I felt so long ago has been darkened again I cant say yes anymore. Now that you will never hold me or talk to me or ever see you grandchildern. Now that you wont meet the women I fell in love with now that there are so many things I would of could of should of told you shared with you! I can never feel the peace the love the safety you gave me. How can one person mean so much and in just secounds be gone never to return and I little ol me now say is that ok? I always have had a hard time with death grandpa, grandma but you where there to say its going to be ok or I'm here if you need me ok? Now all I have left of this thing called a life is hurt, pain, confusion and no its not ok i feel empty, lonely, confussed things far far from ok. If my tears were cash I would be rich but there not so I only am wet and sad because you Dad you where more than ok. Sure we had differences but we talked and we knew that today would be the day. Now the only thing I know is your gone I'm sad and alot of people have to ask themselves would that be ok and most would have to say no because everything you believed in, you where raised on has been compromised and to me that is NOT OK! So I will do what I have to do to right these wrongs and be able to someday say yes Dad that would be ok.

If words could replaces wishes

I'm so sorry to hear of your loss.

There isn't much that one can say that rings anything but hollow. I suppose it's the support that counts, and I wish I could provide more than this.

If words could replace my wishes for you..

They'd speak of fond memories
And gentle moments of forgetfulness
Some mornings..in the still
Words to echo off the love you shared
With one whose legacy remains behind
In the cherished parts
Of loving hearts..

I love you guys. Please be well.

Roger

To Claude and Gladys

So sorry about your dad's passing. You are in my thoughts and prayers. Closure is hard to overcome, but your dad would want us to go forward and make the best of our lives we have left.
Love,
Aunt Marge

From Me To Dad

A Daughter's Prayer
by Nikki Lenker
Father how I miss you
every waking day
I curse the one who made you
die and go away.

I miss your warm hands
and I miss the talks we had
I miss the times when words were of no need
and hope my love you'll always see.

I wish I'd had some time to say
how I loved you so
but I never got the chance
because it was your time to go.

I want the memories back
new and happy still
yet I know I never will
if you knew how much I cared
I might not feel so sad and scared.

My Father how I miss you so
My Father I need you!
I hope you knew about my love
because its strength is always true.

I love you dad

Always in my heart, always in my mind, always in my memory